Today is weigh in day.....

<p>I have been at this for five weeks. One of which due to a family emergency ended up not going to the gym, and not eating as well as I liked. I am super nervous. Nervous of failure, nervous of letting people down, nervous that it will never be enough. Oh there is so much going on right now my mins keeps telling me to forget getting healthy, that I need to focus on everyone else, but I know better then that. 1 pound lost is better then any gained. I will keep you all posted.

I have decided....

In all of this I am going to be brutally honest. I had a very rough day yesterday and didn't want to blog about it but then I realized that the tough days and the days I feel alone, those days are part of my journey also. I had someone who is sick and very close to me tell me the other day that they have no interest in being healthy so to stop trying to give advice. It broke my heart. I went home that night and cried because I know that they know that a healthier diet would be a world of difference for them. I got in to it with my dear husband last night about stimulus control and about portion control. My class on Wednesday was on stimulus control and it couldn't have came at a better time honestly. When I came home after rocking the bike for 13 miles!!(YAY ME!) I came home to realize that the dinner that made 8 serving sizes only had 2 servings left. That had been eaten between my husband, daughter, and sister but I felt like there should have been more. I voiced my frustrations about him bringing a half gallon of ice cream into the  house due to it simply being a temptation. As selfish as it may be I don't want to have that junk in my house right now because then on days like yesterday that were emotionally difficult I won't cave. (Yesterday it was two servings of Fritos) So here we go. If you read this blog please let me know. As vain as it seems I want to know that people do believe in me. Thank you all for the encouragement that you have shared thus far. I am down 4 pounds. Its not much my friends, but it is a start.

Frustrations

This weekend we had visitors and it was amazing! I tried my hardest to stay on track and track even though I didn't like the numbers but I didn't do nearly as bad as I thought I would have. After my friends left we went over to my parents house with the intentions of offering to make dinner and it was nothing but a slippery slope. Started with a bag of fruit snacks, then a rice crispy treat, then some sips of Jon's soda, then some potato chips. If is in the past and I can't do anything about it but realize that I can not eat at my parents house. They aren't even kind of interested in eating healthy or having a healthy lifestyle. I need to get better at packing snacks for my family. So for all of you reading this what are some healthy snacks that keep and don't need refrigerated? Tonight is my Weight Loss class and my second weigh in. I am nervous. Scared I didn't do great. My goal this week is the gym. I SLACKED horrible last week. On to the future!

My first loss!

This is the first time in my life that I remember the scale going down. I would be lying if I said I didn't do a little happy dance out to the weights last night. 3 pounds seems so small but to me it is the beginning. It showed me I CAN do this. I didn't track my intake last week or workouts very well so this week I am starting new. I have done it before and am bound and determined to do it again. So here is to a loss and a new week with new goals!

Measurements on May 2nd, 2011

I have started a Women's Only Weight Loss class at the gym on Monday and Wednesday nights. My first class they weighed and did measurements. Due to the fact that I am in this class with older women who are trying to tone up I knew my numbers would be depressing and sure enough; at 5'5" I am 277 lbs.

My Waist Circumference is 40.50 inches
My Hip Circumfrence is 56.00 inches
My Tricep Skin Fold is 42.7 millimeters
My Supraillium Skinfold is 28.5 Millimeters
My Thigh Skinfold is 42.7 millimeters

I am not putting this here to gross anyone out, or to brag about my size but simply as a starting point. Cause we all have one, right?

LETS DO THIS!!!!!

Here we are again. 13 months later and doing it without my best lady friend by my side. I have hit my road block that I so often hit when it comes to weight loss but this time I am done. I started a class last week and totally sucked at the working out/eating portion of everything. After grocery shopping and crying because of the junk I ate I am starting today new. Starting this week as my beginning. So come along with me and help me lose. I welcome all advice, hints, tips, recipes and anything you all have to offer so help me LOSE!